strike 1

Sometimes you have moments where the whole world stops... you hear your heart beat really loud... you feel your stomach tighten in a knot... you process the information in your head one more time and slowly you are slapped in the face with the realization that you fucked up, royally. Then you are standing on this line... you look to the right and see an option that is simple, easier and that wont give you an ulcer... you think about it and chances are noone would notice you fucked up and if they did you could probably play it off as an honest mistake.... then you reluctantly look to the left, you see the choice you should make along with all the consequences of the mistake and the feelings that come with owning up to your royal screw up... damn i hate that spot.

Today at work I made the right choice, I wont find out until tomorrow AM if the consequences will play out or not... and seriously i dont even think im allowed to feel good about making the right decision, after all it is what i should have done anyways. To look at it from a brighter side... at least my first royal screw up at work is done.

Btw.. icing on the cake, I went to figure out about my car today... almost 3000$. OUCH!
Gotta get ready for dinner... i sure hope it takes away the nasty taste i have in my mouth from this bitter day.

Pree